A non Jew studying Judaism for almost 2 years alone..

by Suzette
(Cebu, Philippines)

Shalom, I dunno how this will work but...

I would like to share to you readers about my studies about Judaism. If I would tell you where and when it all started why I ended up in Orthodox Judaism it would really be quite so long to share about my search.
I will try to share a brief information of what religion I am from.

I am born a Roman Catholic cause both my parents are, during my teenage years I started to read the Bible (Torah along with the rest of the writings) and New Testament, right there I started to ask a lot of questions about my religion.
Then days, months and few years passed I started to listen to other Christian religions debating etc. about they are the right religion etc. (I don't wanna elaborate much further on how they view things about the only religion going to be save etc.)
Since then I've been praying to G-d to guide me and begging to have mercy on a gentile who is hunger for truth who wants to seek for the truth and wants to know about what Hashem really wants, to guide the people who is heartily searching for truth, who are telling the truth and who holds strongly to G-d's mitzvah...
There is a certain Christian religion I was about to pursue my conversion there..but I don't know why I didn't continue my process.

I still have a lot of questions in my mind. I still asked a lot of questions until I finally reached to search about Judaism. What is it about etc. ( I noticed my article isn't brief anymore by the way lol so, I will just have to end my brief story ) up to there til I reached on searching about Judaism.

The site I've read and took notes about Judaism is on this site www.jewfaq.org here I learned things about who is a jew etc. a bit about Jewish history etc and lot more, I'm stuck in languages on this site actually. Hebrew writings is sure hard. I need someone a professional that will teach me.

Also I've been reading articles in aish.com about why Jews doesn't believe Jesus is the messiah.

I also listened to Rabbi Singer's audio's here on this site outreachjudaism.org
And of course www.orthodox-jews.com
Most of this site are really informative for me actually. Of course to those who are curious if what it felt like for me to know why Orthodox Judaism doesn't believe in new testament and Jesus as the messiah.

Honestly, it was really hard for me to accept it at first knowing that what I view him since I was born..but it all make sense even in the New Testament I've read he said Hashem is greater than him. Most of the good teachings in the New Testament are already in the Torah and Writings. So why are there changes that contradicts to Hashem's mitzvah in the Torah in the New Testament..

Anyway, I've asked Rabbi M. Younger about conversion process etc. he told me that I cannot continue to do it alone by myself I need to live in a Jewish community and all and the proper conversion is either in Israel or in US perform in beth din.

Most of the Jew I've contacted really helped me and told me what to do etc. I even signed up in Chabbad Philippines bcause I really want to observe and learn more about Judaism before I am going to contact a rabbi for my conversion process that way it will be easy for the rabbi and myself if we start to begin the process.

That way it is formally observe not just what I'm doing now trying to keep commandments on my own alone. Unfortunately, my family aren't that rich so I cannot just go to Manila where Chabbad Philippines is located and pursue my plan on observing and learning things about holidays there first before contacting to an Orthodox Jew.

I hope when I find another job cause I just quit my job cause it was giving me health problems nothing serious though only my vision got affected.

I really do hope Hashem will guide and help not only me but to those people out there non Jew or Jew who wants to go back to Hashem, who wants to keep G-d's commandment and who wants to know more about our Creator heartily. I am aware there are Movements in Judaism. I have chosen Orthodox Judaism the fact that how they hold dearly to Hashem's commandment and have ever since..

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Apr 03, 2011
I understand.
by: Anonymous


I understand very well as I have been learning
Judaism by myself for quite a while.

May HaShem help all of us.


Apr 03, 2011
I admire your research!
by: John

Wow... It seems like you're really looking for meaning in life!

Apr 03, 2011
Very moving
by: John E.

This is a wonderful story, and I can relate to it as I am also studying Judaism on my own and have been for years. I pray you are able to get the money to be to visit and study at Chabad and move ever-closer to a better relationship with HaShem. G-d bless!

Jun 04, 2011
You are not alone
by: Junji Malaza


I do not think you are alone, there is a Noachide Synagogue in Pinamungahan, Cebu. I was also told that most of the members have left to find work elsewhere.

I can relate to your plight or experience, I was brought up in two religious background, although I was protestant my upbringing was Roman Catholic. To make the long story short, I was like you searching for the root of it all, and it brought me to Orthodox Judaism.

I hope we can connect, our last count in the tri-city area (Cebu City, Mandaue, Lapu-lapu) I was told there are 15, I think there are more. And all over the country is about 400 or 600, there are closet ones so who knows how many.

Jun 05, 2011
My Journey Out of Xtianity
by: Jose Lazar

I was born a Catholic as were my parents before me. I started reading the Bible at 10 through the influence of my bachelor uncle who was a Protestant. I converted to a Protestant denomination of the Restoration Movement branch at 23. I became a youth minister and part-time pulpit minister. Then, I married a woman who came from another Xtian denomination. She was not Ok with my church. I started to question a lot of Xtian teachings. Then, I came across George Bethune English's book "The Grounds of Christianity Examined by Comparing the New Testament with the Old" and then I started reading the articles of Rabbi Tovia Singer. Then, after a year, I decided to leave church and Xtianity for good and start to live HaShem's purpose for the non-Jews (B'Nei Noach).

Jun 05, 2011
Cebu Noachide Community
by: Junji Malaza

Sh'lom Suzette

If you could join us here http://www.facebook.com/home.php?sk=group_147818215288344 it would be a blast. You'd get to know that you are not alone in Cebu and you will not be alone in your journey and studies.

We are planning to open a community house a Beth Knneset if you must call it, currently the proposed house to be rented is in Talisay City.

I hope you will join us or look me up in facebook http://www.facebook.com/junji.malaza

Hoping that you will not feel alone or lonely anymore in your belief.

Jul 20, 2011
Hi Suzette!
by: Jon

Did you join the face book grup?

I'm also studyng judaism and I want to know If that facebook page is a good place?

Jul 21, 2011
i envy
by: machief

i must confess i envy all those who have started studyin Judaism
i realise i have this natural love for jew poeple,tradition and belief thus my quest to study it Religion
i am a Nigerian and i live there and will pray Hashem lead me to jew people in my country
and as for traveling,i dont want to think of that cause its way too expensive to think of now
please any info on jew in Nigeria contact me on machief88@yaoo.com

Jul 21, 2011
by: vilmush

How lovely to hear all these stories.
You are now on a path that will tresform your life.
Za Gezent which be well in yiddish.

Sep 22, 2011
by: bill

we have similarities in searching spiritual knowledge and I want to know about Jews religion.
virplapas@gmail.com is my e-address I'm a Bible & Qur'an student (alone) for many years now and I want to know also about Jews religion. thanks you

Oct 28, 2011
Jewish Community in Cebu ...
by: www.CebuJews.com

Jewish Community in Cebu:

Web Site: www.CebuJews.com
Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/groups/213286582052463/

Thank you,

Ran Fridman

Jun 01, 2012
by: Jegs

I want to know where exactly the place of the Jewish community here in Cebu so that we can be unite especially during Shabbath so we can introduce each other and sharing knowledge and ideas on how to study the Torah or what you've learn in Judaism because I myself wanted to know about Judaism, the Torah, the Tanakh etc...You can reach me thru my number +639281776409 or +639331330413

Mar 30, 2014
shalom! NEW
by: shoham

Shalom Suzete!

this article was like 3 years ago but how are you now? im also considering a conversion to judaism but i have to finish my Torah/Talmud studies first... i am willing to visit cebu...

Apr 18, 2014
truthseeker NEW
by: jas


I was also observing judaism now and actually i was born as a roman catholic religion and for keep me searching the truth i become a born again (baptist).
As for now keep searching in cebu if i can find any religion of judaism until i found this page.

Currently i'm in cordova,cebu living with all my relatives and same like you i found out judaism is right way to follow the truth for the torah is eternal and i believe that hashem did not missed one in order to have a new testament.

If ever you found guys in cebu an orthodox judaism please don't forget to inform me as well and just add me my facebook so we can have a contact anyhow..joel.seguros@yahoo.com

Apr 18, 2014
Hashem NEW
by: Vilmish Lebovic

Remember that you only need to love Hashem to be an observant Jew He guides me always . Hashem is omnipresent and if you follow his words he will always be there .

Feb 23, 2015
hats off to you NEW
by: darian

Hats off to you. I don’t think no one can actually learn something like Judaism for two years alone. This is insane. I would have stopped myself from learning it within 1 week. But if I had someone with me, then maybe I would have been able to learn for a while. Meaningful Use Stage 2

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